This year instead of making resolutions I’m making changes. Too often resolutions spring from idealized notions of how we “should” be that have nothing to do with our current reality. So we bend ourselves out of shape for a few days or a few weeks and then feel like a failure when the idealization doesn’t take.
This year instead of vowing to “be more positive”, I changed my budget so I’ll always have enough gas money to go somewhere. This will reduce my isolation which should in turn raise my spirits. Considering my transportation is a little scooter that gets 80 miles to a gallon and can’t go very far anyway, this is well within reach of my current reality. If what you’re doing isn’t working, do something else.
I pored over Google maps until I found a route to Walmart on which it’s safe to go 15-25 mph. So now I can take my own self to Walmart and don’t have to impose on friends for a ride once a month. Carrying in a month’s worth of food at once was killing me. Now I can go once or twice a week and bring back a normal amount of stuff and it will all be so much easier. This should also raise my self esteem and let me feel more positive and independent. If what you’re doing isn’t working, do something else.
I noticed I get all grumpy when I stay for church after Bible class. So duh, how hard is it to think hey, why don’t I leave right after class? I noticed I get all catty and critical when I converse with one particular person. So hey, converse with someone else hereafter. I could glorify this as “avoiding the occasion of sin” but what it really is is that I just want to feel peaceful and happy. If what you’re doing isn’t working, do something else.
I’d been eating more carbs than my body is really happy with. Rice is so inexpensive and beans are standard poor-people food. I was melting cheddar cheese over pretty much everything, as a substitute for meat or poultry, even knowing that dairy foods aren’t really the best thing for me. It’s time to admit that it isn’t working for my particular body. If what you’re doing isn’t working, do something else. So, I’ll go back to lots of chicken thighs and sometimes some beef. Tons of vegetables and not very much rice or beans at all.
In past years I’ve created lofty (for me) fitness goals like walking a mile every day. I realize that for many people that’s a minimum, but for me it’s quite a reach. So this year all I have to do is get on the treadmill every day. Maybe I’ll feel crappy and get right off again. Maybe I’ll be full of vim and vigor and walk a mile. It won’t matter because what matters is I got on the treadmill every day. Bodies are designed and evolved to move. Writing at the computer is not movement and riding a scooter doesn’t count either. So I get on the treadmill every day because that’s what a body needs and it’s something this body can realistically do.
Is what you’re doing working? Can you realistically do something else?